Why i'm kinda bitter
2005-03-09 at 2:48 p.m.
i'm sitting in the library, with Tori and Nick across from me.I suddenly realized that the reason i got so threatened by Tori was that she liked Mike the same time i did. I never admitted to her or to myself, but it hurt very much to not be a part of his life as much as she was. The thought tightens my stomach because she's such a happy-go-lucky person and in many ways, i would love to follow in those footsteps.
The other thing about Tori is that she's supersmart. I mean, dude, who else has a clean record of no C's her high school career? I certainly cannot think of anyone who can show such amazing talent in many areas. I couldn't dream of a perfect person like Tori. And as much as i hate my own guts, i hate hers more. But less so now, 'cuz i've seen a sentimental, caring side to her.
Sure, some days, i hurt from the memories of that Club Soda were i told Mike what i wanted and he shoved my heart on the ground and took Tori instead of me. But i remember that i cannot control peoples' emotions. And Tori is happy with Will, and i'm glad for her.
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